Here I go…AGAIN.

16 11 2008

I have been MIA for a week or so because I have been bad, real bad.  Eating and drinking whatever I want whenever I want it.  I am too afraid to stand on the scales.  I know I have gotten heavier, I can tell by the way my clothes are fitting.

I think I will jump on the wagon with S and do WW.  I know how to do it, I am just not a huge fan.  I do better counting calories because I know my limits and with points I get carried away and have them all eaten by dinner time.  I know that doesn’t make since but it is true.  So I will spend this week tracking points.  I will stand on the damn scales tomorrow morning and give you my ‘true’ weight.

I have a really hard time doing this when I feel so confident.  I look in the mirror and don’t get mad or sad, I am content.  I like my curves and I like food.  But at the same time I don’t want my 3 little girls to grow up thinking my weight and the way I eat is normal.  I want them to see me eating healthy and exercising, regardless of my size.  That is what is important, teaching them how to eat properly and stay fit.  And if I did just that I would, in fact, lose weight.

So as I embark on this AGAIN I will do it with a different attitude.  I am doing this for my health, not for my self confidence or to be sexy.  I am already sexy, no matter what anyone says.  I want to be healthy, happy and live life to the fullest.  When I run in the yard with the girls I don’t want to be out of breath after 2 minutes of playing.  I want to be more active and feel great!!  And I will…

On a different note, I want to let all the great commenter’s to S know how much it means to not only her but to me.  It is really hard to put your life out into ‘blog’ world, but when you do and you get positive feedback it helps.  It helps you maintain your mind set, and reach your goals!  Knowing that others concur and agree allows you to explore your thoughts and feelings even further which helps you reach in and grab that last piece of what you need for success…So thank you all.




2 responses

17 11 2008

Hey girl I am so proud of you for giving it another shot. I know how hard and frustrating it can be. I just wanted to let you know that the way that I keep my points on track is to divide them in half. Half for b-fast and lunch and half for dinner. That way if I don’t get them all in at dinner I can have a little something else later. I know you eat later than I do so maybe you could just save 10 for dinner. I know that dinner for me is usually my bigger meal. Here lately since I am getting 24 points I try to divide it into 7,8,9 that works ok but I don’t usually get 7 in for b-fast so then I have those points to catch up on, and sometimes I don’t get the 8 in without drinking a soda. I don’t know I try to just divide it 12 and 12 that seems to work better for me. Now that I have just rambled and probably made no sense, I am proud of ya. Hang in there we will get through this together. I have got to get 40 off by Jan. 2 Wish me luck…I luv ya girl XOXO***S

18 11 2008

i think you sound so strong! And you have a great attitude.
i have good days and bad days which i am sure you can relate.
i have 2 girls and they often ask me why i say things like “i can’t eat that”. i could just pinch myself for setting the wrong example. but i am careful to let them eat freely and just ask – “are you full?” instead of making comments like “if you eat too much, you’ll get fat” – it’s all in how we talk to them.
i have had several friends do ww and have had results that have lasted.
personally – i think you find whatever works for you.
stay strong girl – i enjoy reading your posts.

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