I’m Back

5 05 2009

Hey guys well if you hadn’t guess things haven’t exactly went the way that I planned around here. The weight loss is not going well but I am at it again and eventually I will make it to my goal weight. I am working out and eating a shit ton of salad and watching my carb intake. I did start taking the Alli diet pill and I am not seeing the effects that everyone says there is .I am however walking 4 miles a day and that is doing me some good. I feel better even though the weight is not coming off like I had hoped. I do however have another dr apt. for this week to find out if something is going on with my thyroid. I have busted my butt and with little result it is hard to keep going but i just keep in mind that I do have a beautiful lil girl to keep going for.

On another note I am having much luck with my business and have gained a good clientel. I am even starting a job working with the residental living center here by my house next Wed. so that is a good thing and I am excited. It will be one day a week and I will take care of the ladies hair there at the center. I got a Pedicure chair now that I am moved into a bigger shop and business is going well with that. I love my new space and the accomplishments that I have made there. Now if I can only get my health issues taken care of I will be set.

With school about to let out I am starting to worry about what to do with my daughter for the summer. She will go to her dads alot of the time but he has to go to work before I will be getting off and now I have to figure out what to do with that in between time. I’m sure that it will all work out and things will be fine. Putting in all these hours will hopefully pay off in the long run.

To all of you who are reading thanks for bearing with me even though I do not get on as often as I would like. I do appreciate the comments and I am sorry for not getting back to you as soon as I should have. Feel free to send me an email at s_treffert@yahoo.com I hope to hear from you and I just want to wish you all the best of luck. Hopefully I will be on sooner this next time. Until then much love to all of you

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Weigh In

12 12 2008

Today is weigh in day and I am proud to say that I am down a total of  20.2 pounds. With only 22 days remaining I am afraid that I am not going to make it to my original goal of 40 pounds by Jan. 2nd.

With that said I am happy that I am losing again and I am not going to let the unmet goal distract me. I am spending anywhere from 1.5 to 2 hours in the gym so hopefully I will atleast meet a 30 pound goal.

Already people are starting to notice that I am losing and commenting on how good I look. That really helps to boost the ego and stay on track.

Although I haven’t lost the amount that I would have liked to by now I am losing inches and gaining muscle. I can tell in the way I look and the way things are fitting. I am also feeling better and actually look forward to going to the gym. It is kind of my away time and I like that.

I know it may sound a little selfish to some of you but I need that away time. From everyone including my daughter. I can’t even get in the shower or go to the bathroom alone when I am home. Don’t get me wrong I love my daughter and I enjoy the time I do get with her but the bathroom( come on ) that should be private time.

Since I had met the first goal of losing 20 pounds I decided to treat myself a little. So I started tanning today(again). Didn’t see the point before when I was covering everything up. Now that I am looking half ass decent I want to start getting a tan so that when the other 20 comes off I can show it off.. I am a little burnt though. It had been over 6 months since I had been to the tanning bed. That was only to get a tan started before our vacation to Myrtle Beach.

Other than that not to much has been going on this week. I have been really focused on this diet and it has kind of consumed me here lately. When I get in that mode I tend to let it take over. For me that is the best way. It becomes a part of my life that I don’t want to(can’t) live without.

I don’t really want to call it a diet though I should call it a new way of  life because that is what it has to become.

To all of you who read I hope that the holidays are treating you good and I will try to post more often. Not too much goes on in my life just work, home and working out. Now that I am only weighing in once a week I don’t have alot to post about.

Maybe the love life will start being a little better and make my life more interesting…lol

Until next time…xoxo~S





Anxiety

8 12 2008

Our PERFECT TREE

Our PERFECT TREE

This weekend went exceptionally well. I had my daughter’s birthday party and went to Chuckie Cheese on Saturday and still managed to stay in my point range(of course I did use a few of the extra alotted) but not too many. I think I used a total of six extra on Saturday but that is the only extra I plan to use this week. Being that you are allowed 30 extra a week. I don’t feel that 6 is too bad.

 

I didn’t however manage to get to the gym on Saturday or Sunday. I kept very busy both days and I don’t feel like I have gained. I am trying not to weigh every day only on Thursdays so I do not know if I have lost or gained at all.

On Saturday we had the family birthday party with the CAKE AND ICE CREAM but I managed to stay away from that and I had my own WW cake and ice cream(total of 3 points that way).  Then that evening we went to Chuckie Cheese and I have to admit that I let myself splurge on pizza and A cheesestick. Grand total of points there 14. Which was ok because I had alotted myself extra for that night.

After we got back to town I got to spend some time with J (the guy I had wrote about in previous posts). The kids got to spend the rest of the night playing together and I got to play with J. We had a long talk and he finally told me that he loved me and wanted us to be together but the timing just wasn’t right. He wants us to spend Christmas together and bring K for Christmas at his families house. I am a little nervous but so happy that he is making some kind of commitment to me at the same time. It was bitter sweet to hear him say that he loves me and thinks about me all the time but at the same time he is not willing to completely settle down and us just be together. I am hoping that after we spend Christmas together that will seal the deal.

Anyways, on Sunday I took my daughter to choose and cut down our very first REAL tree. That was really exciting and special at the same time. It took a long time to find what we thought was the perfect tree. It was so pretty and full and I was so proud of her for picking such a wonderful tree. By the time that we got home and cleaned out all of the dead stuff it wasn’t nearly as FULL as we thought it was. Nor was it a perfect shape. So now we have this REAL tree that is so far from perfect but for me it is so perfect because it is K’s tree. It is lop-sided and the tree leans to one side with this great big (tumor looking spot) on the other side.If we turn it then all you will see is the bare spot. Ha ha I love it…

That is what my weekend consisted of and it was the best weekend I have had in a long time. I got to spend time with the people I love and have fun doing it. I can’t wait for another weekend like that. Hope that Christmas goes as well for us.

Well I got to go today is K’s actual birthday and I want to spend what time I have left of the day with her. Hope all is well for you and your families.

Much Love ***S





Weekend fun til the night ends..

1 12 2008

This weekend did not go as planned in many ways. First of all I didn’t get back on track like I should have until Sunday. Friday went ok but then came Saturday and that was a total disaster.

I decided to go and hang out with a group of friends from the good ol days. First mistake.. I love being around all of them but i should of known that the night was going to be a bust at the end.

I headed out to dinner with my bff C and we had some cocktails while there. Dinner didn’t go to bad I had chicken and a salad.

Then we proceded to meet her b/f (my cousin) at the bar where we all use to hang out. Along with him was a *friend* of mine from the past. There is a long story to all of that so I will just say that my bff that commited suicide was his bro and he was always trying to get us together and I wouldn’t do it because I was seeing someone else. After he died we started spending alot of time together and got into some trouble. He got sent off and we lost touch for a long while.

Anyways emotions run high when we are together. He just got out of a marriage and isn’t ready for a commitment. We spent the night together drinkin and going muddin and he is the sweetest thing to me and I love him for that. We had alot of fun just hangin out and doing the things that we use to do together.

We talked, laughed, hugged, kissed, and just had a great time. But I knew that at the end of the night there was something that he was wanting. BTW he opens doors for me, waits on me hand and foot and says the sweetest things to me. Even if he doesn’t get what he wants he still treats me that way. He is just a wonderful guy.

I didn’t take him home with me but it wasn’t cuz I didn’t want to I just didn’t want that to be what the whole night was about. I enjoyed the night and I know how things are afterwards. We have been there a few times before.

I sent him an email explaining my feelings and why I can’t do that anymore. He was really understanding and I have to say that I do love him for that.

It just kind of put a damper on the great night that we had just had together. I seen him yesterday and it was just like it always is.

He has invited me to come out to his mom’s house to visit because I havent’ seen her in a long time. I do want to go but then again it is kind of weird. She will sit and tell me how much J talks about me and how we should be together. In all reality that is what I want but I can’t say to much to her because I don’t know exactly how he feels on all of it.

We definately need to dit down and talk about all of this. I just don’t understand how he can be so caring and loving and wants everyone to think that we are together when were not. What the hell is a girl to do? Please help me..





Thank God it’s over…

29 11 2008

So the holiday is finally over and I have to admit that I am thankful for that. Up next, another holiday that involves nothing but food. Great I am so happy(totally srcastic on that one).

This morning was tragic.. I was up 2.6 pounds this morning. Wonderful I had only manage to lose 3.6 this week and I gained almost all of it back in one day.

I did manage to get in a walk yesterday but it wasn’t near as far as I would of liked to go. Unlike some of you out there I love to be around my family. So we made it a family outing and went for a walk. Me, mom, aunt L, bff C, kids, we all went for a walk. It was a good time and I enjoyed it. Should of done more but wth?

All in all yesterday went pretty good. I did manage to restrict myself and only allowed one meal for the day. A huge meal but only one. Actually after I got done with all of it the first time I didn’t want anything else the rest of the day.

Bloated and feeling awful I managed to make myself go to the gym today. Spending two hours there made me feel better about all of it.

Knowing that Christmas is just around the corner makes me want to work even harder to get this off before then so I have a few pounds to gamble with at that time. I love the holidays just for the time that I get to spend with the family I never see but the food is such a drag.

The majority of my day today was spent helping put up lights with my papa. We had fun and still didn’t manage to get it all put up even though we spent hours decorating.( My gma loves this shit) This is like her favorite time of the year.

K’s b-day is only 9 days away with the party being 7 away it is probably time for me to really start planning and getting things in order. Thankful that I already have all of her presents bought all I have to do is find the time to wrap all of them(there is a ton). This also means ice cream and cake…wonderful.

I will probably spend this weekend getting that together and wrapping gifts since she will be gone to dad’s. I guess there is no better time to do it.

I hope that you all had a great holiday. Now to prepare for the next…

Much love  xoxo***S





Missing You

3 11 2008

A quick update.  I weighed yesterday for the first time in a week and I am the same as the last time I weighed.  Which means that the ‘normal’ eating I have been doing either hasn’t caught up with me yet or I just didn’t over eat enough to gain.  Today I am back on plan, as well as doing the flylady.com.  I have been getting the email and just deleting them.  I need to make my house clean and if I clean I will burn calories.  So, today I turn a new leaf.  I am probably hosting Thanksgiving or Christmas or both here and I need my house to be Company Ready.

 

I hope you let me know when you find out your results.  Email me at the least, please.  I hadn’t heard from you in several days…Hope you are well!!

 

xoxo, starve on.

C





Encouragement

29 10 2008

Thank you so much for the encouragement and understanding. However I was back down 2 of the pounds that I had gained this morning so that was a good start to this day. Overall I had put back on 8 pounds so I still have a long way to go. I am not tracking it so much but like you I am only eating when I am hungry and trying to make better choices and portion control. I must have tricked my body yesterday because I ate a McChicken and I know that wasn’t good for me. But I kept away from the fries and that is all I had til dinner at which I had a turkey burger for dinner. Nothing else, cal wise I have no idea where I stood but I felt like it was a good day. I haven’t been gettin in my water like I should and I know that if I would it would be better success. Oh well with everything going on I can only hope that what I am doing will be enough for now. By the way it got down to 27  here lastnight. So maybe I am burning so cals staying warm too. I did have to finally turn on a little heat for K though.  Best of luck to you and hang in there, it will get easier. It has to right?  I am proud of ya and thanks for the support. I will let ya know more when I do.

xoxo