3 More Days

28 02 2009

The clock is ticking and so far I am on track. There are 3 more days to go til the final weigh in with my dad and bro. I am super excited and as of right now I am in first. The biggest downfall is that my dad tends to drop a few in one day and as of now I am only ahead by 1. My goal is to drop atleast to more pounds in the next three days before the weigh in. That will put me at my personal goal to lose 15 pounds in 4 weeks. I am trying to give it my all and hang in there. Not giving into temptation right now is a challenge but I also want to prove that I can shed the weight too. Girl scout cookies come in yesterday and ofcourse I had ordered 4 boxes before this whole thing started. The look on my face when they showed up yesterday I’m sure was discust. I did not want them anywhere near me. I managed to sell 2 of the boxes that I had bought to co-workers. That was a definate plus. Even bigger plus is that I sold MY favorite ones so the temptation is not as great. I kept the boxes that my daughter wanted and I am limiting how many she can have a day as well.  I know that I haven’t been on for a while so here is the scoop. I am now down 13 pounds since the start of all of this, I am back to doing the Weight Watchers because that is what works for me. I am trying to lose it at a resonable pace so that I can keep it off this time. No sence in losing it if it’s not going to stay off. Gym time has been cut short for me the last few weeks so I bought a resistance band and a few other things so that I can atleast get in a few short workouts through out the day. I do take the band to work with me and if I have a chance I try to fit in a little before or after lunch. I am trying to do short intervels either before or after each meal. It seems to be working ok. I know that if I was to go to the gym it would probably be coming off a little faster but what the hell it’s coming off and that is my only concern at this time. I also wear ankle weights to work for a little something. So that is the plan that I am using at this time. You will find that I will try many things through out this journey but I always seem to go back to WW. It just works for me..

On a nother note my daughter is playing basketball and I am enjoying that so much. She really loves the sport and is getting better all the time. This is game number seven and with only one game left she is doing very well. She is starting to come out of her shell. She started out very timid and is now learning to get in there and fight for the ball. She made 2 baskets today and got the defence award. I was so proud of her and she was proud of her self. I love the joy in her eyes when she knows that she has done well. Of course it is a family event to go watch her play and that gives her alot of incouragement. With me and dad, gma and gpa(my parents), great gma, aunt L and uncle S all watching she nows that she has the support I fell a child should have and that means the world to her to know that we all are there for her.

Well that is my journey so far I have had my ups and downs and will have from now on. The only thing that matters is I get up and start again. Much love to all my readers. Wishing you all the best until next time..



Stayin on track

5 02 2009

It is only day two but still I have to say that I am on track and motivated to make this work. Usually by day two or three I am dreading the food or diet or everything. The bet is really going to be a good thing for me. I am a very competitive person and I know my family is too so that makes me want to work even harder to prove myself. So here’s what I have ate today.

bfast: slimfast and water  220cals

snack: cranberry juice  120 cals

lunch: pear and water  50 cals

dinner:  turkey burger  240 cals

dessert: WW cookie   90 cals

Ok so that is a total of  720 cals for the day. Not to shabby!  So I said yesterday that I was taken the 7 day cleanse by Hydroxycut  and I have to add that I have spent a majority of the day in the restroom so I think that it is doing something.  I have also been taking fiber pills to though so that may be helping. I am gettin ready to head out to the gym for an hour of cardio tonight. I did my strength trainin yesterday so I am trying to rotate it so that I don’t get burnt out or hit that so called plateau. By the way that is a figment of the imagination. It is just telling you that you are not pushing your body hard enough to take off those pounds that you want to take off. Yes it may slow down but it doesn’t stop if you push through the comfort zone.. 

No caffine has made me a bitch today and I am aware of that. I have had no patients with anyone including my daughter and that makes me feel bad but I know that if I just stick it out for a few more days that will change and I will be back to the regular me.  Cutting the carbs and caffine is going to take a toll on my body for a while but that is the conciquences that I am will to take to lose this weight. I am done being the fat mommy and the unhealthy (can’t run or dance all night at the bar) friend.  I just want to be the inergetic person that I know I am inside. I want that to shine through.

For all of you struggling with weight I am here for ya and I wish you all the best of luck.  Keep your head up and stay strong.

Just Not Cuttin It

4 12 2008

So I am just not able to take the weight off with just diet and exercise so I have decided to start taking supplements again. It is not the way that I wanted to do it but I guess whatever works I am going to have to do.

I am sore as hell today and I still feel like shit. I didn’t make it to the gym yesterday but I did manage to get in a workout here at home.

I rode my bike 2 miles, worked on squats and lunges, did some free weights and stair steppers. I probably didn’t burn near as many cals as I do at the gym but damn I am hurting today.

This has also been a very busy day which has been good. This is actually the first time that I have sit down today since this morning before 8am. Not too bad I guess that is cals that I am burning.

Got to go back to work here in a bit so I am going to have dinner early so that when I get off I can head straight for the gym. No if’s and’s or but’s tonight. I have got to go and burn off some of the energy that I have accumulated through out the day.

Progress is slow but I am hopeful that all the sweat and tears that I have put into this will soon catch up with me. I am getting all the water in that I was struggling to get in before. I have totally cut out caffine from my diet except for when I do go out to eat. Which I am proud to say that we have not ate out all week. I have cooked lunch and dinner for myself all week.

 Normally my daughter and I have a bad habbit of just going and grabbing something. It is so easy to do and actually cheaper for us(since it is just the 2 of us).

This week I have made the time to cook dinner everynight and we have enjoyed being able to sit down at the table for a meal together. That is definately something that I need to get back in the routine of.

So although I have not been losing like I had hoped I am thankful for what I have lost and I feel so much better now that i am working out everyday.

Keep up all the good work everyone. Much love xoxo*S

Feelin the Drain

3 12 2008

Ok so it is now Wednesday and I am back on track and down 4 pounds from the last time I posted. That is only a total of 13.6 pounds for the total. Not so great but atleast it is a loss.

I am not feelin great today. The whole cold weather sinus shit has kicked in and I am hatin it. I need to go to the gym to make myself feel better but I do not have enough time before work to fit it in this morning.

I did get in a 2 hour workout yesterday and I was excited about that. Although I am not lossing the weight like I had hoped I am lossing inches which always helps too.

I have got to find the time to go to the gym today and I am not sure when that is going to be. I have to work til 2 then K gets out at 3 and homework and basketball consume most of the rest of the night. Hopefully I will find atleast and hour in there to fit something in.

I have been trying some new recipes around here and have found some solutions to things that my family likes that I can still have. It is hard when you have 5 people who like totally different things. And yes I do most of the cooking.

Tonight we are having turkey mignon, they are having scalloped potatoes and cooked carrots(which my daughter loves). I am trying not to eat many carbs that late at night.

I have consulted my doctor about my weight loss because it seems to be bouncing all over the place and I have never had this much trouble lossing before. I know it’s not just going to fall off but I am following this thing to a T and still am not recieving the results that I did last time.

We talked and he said that because I have come off the birthcontrol that I was on that is probably throwing my body for a spin. Hadn’t really thought about it to much but I figured it would help me to lose faster. He said that because my body has been use to it for so long that it is probably going to take some time for it to readjust.

This helps me to know that it is not me that is screwing this up but at the same time I am coming to the conclusion that the 40 I had hoped to drop before surgery is probably not going to happen. He says that 14 pounds in 3 weeks is a healthy number. I don’t want a healthy number I want a happy number.

I should probably stop weighing everyday but it is a habitual habbit for me. I need to know if what I ate the day before helped or hurt me. I hate the whole figuring out your body b/s. I know that it is going to fluctuate from day to day and I can deal with that a little bit but not 2 pounds worth.

Like this morning I was up .6 from yesterday. I can handle that knowing that I hadn’t had a BM. Things like that I understand but not up 2.

Anyways I am now rambling and ranting. BTW I did talk to the guy I spoke of in the last post and we are doing fine. Everything is worked out for now. We are going to continue to hang out and see where things go from there.

We had a long talk about the situation, cried and told each other how we felt. Before I could tell him how I felt he told me that he really cared for me and he wants us to be together but after being in a crappy relationship for 10 years and just gettin out of that he doesn’t feel that it would be fair for me for us to get together yet. I respected him for that and I told him that I cared for him as well and I hoped that in the future it would work out for us.

We are going to hang out this weekend when K and I get back from her b-day party and Chuckie Cheese. He wants to take K somewhere on Sunday for her b-day and get her something.

I am really hoping that things work out and we can be together soon. I don’t want to rush things, but it would be nice for us to just be together once and for all.

Thanks to all of you who read and comment. The support is much appreciated. Stay strong and don’t let all these holidays get you down.

Much Love xoxo***S

Thank God it’s over…

29 11 2008

So the holiday is finally over and I have to admit that I am thankful for that. Up next, another holiday that involves nothing but food. Great I am so happy(totally srcastic on that one).

This morning was tragic.. I was up 2.6 pounds this morning. Wonderful I had only manage to lose 3.6 this week and I gained almost all of it back in one day.

I did manage to get in a walk yesterday but it wasn’t near as far as I would of liked to go. Unlike some of you out there I love to be around my family. So we made it a family outing and went for a walk. Me, mom, aunt L, bff C, kids, we all went for a walk. It was a good time and I enjoyed it. Should of done more but wth?

All in all yesterday went pretty good. I did manage to restrict myself and only allowed one meal for the day. A huge meal but only one. Actually after I got done with all of it the first time I didn’t want anything else the rest of the day.

Bloated and feeling awful I managed to make myself go to the gym today. Spending two hours there made me feel better about all of it.

Knowing that Christmas is just around the corner makes me want to work even harder to get this off before then so I have a few pounds to gamble with at that time. I love the holidays just for the time that I get to spend with the family I never see but the food is such a drag.

The majority of my day today was spent helping put up lights with my papa. We had fun and still didn’t manage to get it all put up even though we spent hours decorating.( My gma loves this shit) This is like her favorite time of the year.

K’s b-day is only 9 days away with the party being 7 away it is probably time for me to really start planning and getting things in order. Thankful that I already have all of her presents bought all I have to do is find the time to wrap all of them(there is a ton). This also means ice cream and cake…wonderful.

I will probably spend this weekend getting that together and wrapping gifts since she will be gone to dad’s. I guess there is no better time to do it.

I hope that you all had a great holiday. Now to prepare for the next…

Much love  xoxo***S

All The Food

27 11 2008

So tomorrow is Thanksgiving and me personally I am not ready for all of that food to be placed in front of me. It kind of makes me sick to even think about all of it being there. I made desserts tonight and that was enough for me to want to puke. I did however get to spend some well deserved time with K cooking. She loves to cook and I love to teach her.

This week has not at all went how I have planned. I have been spending 90 minutes in the gym every night and still am not receiving the results that I had hoped for. I sure hope that I am builing some muscle..

As of this morning I was down a total of 12.4 pounds. Tomorrow will be the start of week 3 and I am hoping that it goes better than this week. That is only a 3.6 pound loss for this week. Not so good I know.

I have become a compulsive person again. I want to have control and be better than everyone. I am far from that but I am trying. I go to the gym with my mom, and I am constantly trying to out do her.(she is like 50 pounds lighter than I am) It is kinda nice because I push myself to do things that I know I wouldn’t do if she wasn’t there.

Knowing that tomorrow is already going to suck I am still planning out the daily exercise for that. I definately have to get some cardio in. Maybe I can go for a jog or a hike or something. My bff from here will be at our dinner too. She will probably go with me so that will be nice.

My gym doesn’t open til noon on Friday so first thing when it opens I will be there and for like 3 hours there after. I hate when holidays come up. It’s like all people think about it getting together to eat. Who made that rule and why? Why can’t we get toghether and do something else. I love to see my family get together but I could definately do without the food.

I hope that everyone has a great Thanksgiving and props to all of you who stick to your guns that day. (I probably will cheat) Thursdays are my cheat days…Kudos to anyone who makes it through.

Much love,  xoxo***S

Ugh..It’s Monday

24 11 2008

Ok so it is Monday morning and so far this morning is going good. I just got home from a 90 min workout.(third day in a row) I feel great..sore but great. I know that it will all pay off so I am going to keep it up.

My gym is closed for Thanksgiving so I will have to use an alternate form of exercise that day. Still thinking on that one. If anyone has any ideas please let me know.

This weekend didn’t go as planned for me I had hoped to be down 15 by now but that is not the case. As of this morning I am down 11.2

I have been having trouble with having a BM so I think that has alot to do with it. I hadn’t been able to go since Wednesday. This is not normal for an everyday girl. So yesterday I took a couple of laxatives to help me out.

This morning at 4:30 I went. and then again and again. Not that you really care but I feel that is the reason that I haven’t dropped more than I have.

I was up 2 pounds one morning and I was balistic. It was so hard for me because I had been doing so good and that was not suppose to happen. It was off the next day but I was still upset.

I have to get the 40 off by Jan.2 because it is now a challenge. Everyone in my life has told me that it will not happen, there is no way you will drop that much, blah, blah,blah. So now it is to prove myself and let everyone know that if you want it bad enough that it can happen.

I am thinking of signing up with a personal trainer at my gym but I am not sure if that is really for me. I am kind of a free flow kind of person who likes to change things up when I am at the gym. I don’t want to be stuck doing the same things everyday and that is what I see with them when I am there.So I am still thinking of it but I am probably not going to just for that reason.

They do have machines there that you can get a personalized key for so that you know how much and how many to do each day. The trainer sits these up but doesn’t stick with you all the time so I will probably do something like that. I don’t like to be watched. I fell like I accomplish more when noone is watching. I tend to compete with myself and the others around me.

I am still very happy with my results and I am thinking of it like I only have 28.8 to go. Good luck to everyone over the holiday coming up and I hope it goes well for ya.

much luv,xoxo***S