Binge and Purge

6 11 2008

So things haven’t been going as planned here in IL. I have been binging like crazy and with that comes the purge. I don’t even have to binge now to want to purge. I don’t like the feeling but every time I eat I just feel the need to throw it all back up. My body is resiting the food which is a good thing but at the same time I don’t want this to be the way. I have done this before and it has had some bad efects on my health and I don’t want for anything else to come bad health wise. I am concerned about gaining weight after the surgery so if anyone has some tips on that it would be much appreciated.

On a positive note things at the new shop are going great. I have been busy as I can be which is a good that keeps me from eating…(which I definately need that). I am having trouble with not eating all day, by the time that I get home I am starving so then I do eat something and its not all the things I should eat. However I am trying to stay within the 800 cal mark. Most days go pretty well but I do tend to drink over my limit.  All the drinking is starting to catch up with me and I am trying to slow that back down to nothing(but I am getting my water in this way).

Thanks so much to Hana for the comments and the thinspiration. You are so strong and I admire you for that. I could only wish that I was that thin but the baby belly seems to never go away. I am thinking of trying to do your diet and hopefully it will work as well for me.  I someimes think of trying the trippin again but I don’t want to do it around K. Although it did keep me from wanting to eat and I stayed busy doing nothing. If only I could go back to the good Ol days…haha

Much love to all that reads

starve on, stay strong

xoxo  S


This weekend was a joke..

26 10 2008

 am just going to put it this way and tell ya that I completely blew it this weekend and at this point I have not got on the scale. To scared to know where I am at. Hopefully it will get better after I get the stress of the school issue off my back. Sorry I didn’t post yesterday, between the working and the moving and my cuz b-day party I left my house at 7:30 sat am and got home 1:30 this am. Needless to say I did alot of drinking this weekend and eating things I shouldn’t of ate. All just to try to forget some of the stress. Starting tomorrow I will be back on track and full speed ahead, (that is my plan). After the school issue I have to go to the Dr. about the cancer issue. It is going to be a hectic day so that will help to keep my mind off of food. As for today I am going to binge and get in everything that I am craving so that tomorrow will be easier. Hope ya are havin a great weekend.

Love from your EDNO friend