Ugh..It’s Monday

24 11 2008

Ok so it is Monday morning and so far this morning is going good. I just got home from a 90 min workout.(third day in a row) I feel great..sore but great. I know that it will all pay off so I am going to keep it up.

My gym is closed for Thanksgiving so I will have to use an alternate form of exercise that day. Still thinking on that one. If anyone has any ideas please let me know.

This weekend didn’t go as planned for me I had hoped to be down 15 by now but that is not the case. As of this morning I am down 11.2

I have been having trouble with having a BM so I think that has alot to do with it. I hadn’t been able to go since Wednesday. This is not normal for an everyday girl. So yesterday I took a couple of laxatives to help me out.

This morning at 4:30 I went. and then again and again. Not that you really care but I feel that is the reason that I haven’t dropped more than I have.

I was up 2 pounds one morning and I was balistic. It was so hard for me because I had been doing so good and that was not suppose to happen. It was off the next day but I was still upset.

I have to get the 40 off by Jan.2 because it is now a challenge. Everyone in my life has told me that it will not happen, there is no way you will drop that much, blah, blah,blah. So now it is to prove myself and let everyone know that if you want it bad enough that it can happen.

I am thinking of signing up with a personal trainer at my gym but I am not sure if that is really for me. I am kind of a free flow kind of person who likes to change things up when I am at the gym. I don’t want to be stuck doing the same things everyday and that is what I see with them when I am there.So I am still thinking of it but I am probably not going to just for that reason.

They do have machines there that you can get a personalized key for so that you know how much and how many to do each day. The trainer sits these up but doesn’t stick with you all the time so I will probably do something like that. I don’t like to be watched. I fell like I accomplish more when noone is watching. I tend to compete with myself and the others around me.

I am still very happy with my results and I am thinking of it like I only have 28.8 to go. Good luck to everyone over the holiday coming up and I hope it goes well for ya.

much luv,xoxo***S


Starting the day

17 11 2008

Today is going to be the test to see if I can stick with it. I was disappointed this morning when I got on the scales and it said that I had only lost .2 of a pound. However that does make my total 6 pounds on the start of day 5. Looking back I do think that there is a possiblity that it is does have something to do with all the water that I drank yesterday causing me to have water weight. I sure hope so! I am a fanatic about weighing so I do it every morning and again sometimes of an evening. I wish that I could break that cycle and weigh once a week. Probably not going to happen.. I enjoy knowing when I have done good and when I do bad I want to know that kind of day will not work for me. I hate to have only lost .2 but I have got to look at the good part of this and notice that there were a few days I dropped over 2 pounds. That is the mindset that I am trying to hang on to for today. I have a hard time sticking with it when I don’t drop what I would like to. I am going to head to the gym here in a bit and I know that will help me to drop what I am not right now. Numbers should increase and besides that is something that I need to do anyways whether it helps to speed up the numbers or not. I am not good at going to the gym, it’s just not something that I enjoy doing and I tend to make excuses as to why I can’t go that day. When I do go I feel self concious of the way that I look. It seems like if I do get there I do ok though, because I look at all the fit people around me and I want to be like them so I workout really hard and push myself to do more and more. However I tend to schedule to go when there is a variety of people there so I don’t feel like the only fat person in the building. I know that I need to do this for me and I shouldn’t care what others think but I do. My goal for this week is to have lost 10 pounds by Thursday morning. Only 4 more to go! Sure hope that I make it.  I will try to catch ya all up on my day and how it goes for me later. Much love


Couldn’t Ask for Anything Better

16 11 2008

Well here it is day 4 on W.W. and I am down 5.8 pounds as of this morning. I am super excited and I hope to continue to do as well for the rest of this week. Since I started on Thursday I am tracking my weeks that way. I have to admit that this weekend has been hard for me to stay on track but I was able to do so and this is a feeling of control that I haven’t felt for a long time. I have been able to continue to eat out (which we do alot) and that is helpful to me. I still get to eat the foods that I enjoy the most and I have that full feeling that MY body requires. I envy those who thrive on that empty feeling and wished that worked for me but I know that it doesn’t and that only sets me up for failure in the end. This way I feel it is a benefit to me to be able to eat what I want and still lose the weight(healthier too).

I haven’t started exercising yet but I intend to tomorrow. I know that the results will be greater if I do so. I am a member of the YMCA gym here and I need to start taking advantage of that again. It is nice because they do have a free daycare that my daughter can go to while I am working out.  I am starting her in basketball(which she wants to do) for the winter so that she will get some form of exercise as well. This will be good for the both of us because we can use the gym at the YMCA to do some practicing in. I love to play basketball and I hope that she will love it as much as I did when I was a kid. She is packing on some weight herself which I do not mention to her but she is concious of it. Constantly tell me that she need to lose weight (she will be 7 in Dec.) I worry about her having an eating disorder too.  I try to make her feel good about herself and her body telling her that she looks good and how cute she is all the time. Ofcourse I know that she is a little heavy but I still think she is the cutest ( I am a little bias). I just want her to be happy with herself no matter what anyone else might think. I don’t want this to be a battle that she has for all of her life.

She is the most important reason why I am doing this. I want it for myself but I also want to set a good example for her. Whinning and saying how I need to lose weight and doing nothing about it has got to stop and stop now. I need this more now than ever and so does she. Seeing me yo-yo and never set a goal and stick to it isn’t doing either one of us any good. She is my pride and joy, I just want her to be happy and I want to be happy with her.

It has really helped me to be able to have this to share feelings and thoughts with a great friend and all of our readers. I appreciate all of you. Stay tuned for more results…

Thanks to all of ya, xoxo***S

My Top 10 Tricks/Tips

19 10 2008

1. Negative Calorie Foods are your new bestie(google it now)

2. Drink tons of ice cold water.  Ice cold anything is good.  Cold water raises metabolism and burns calories. Also, when you are thirsty, you may confuse hunger for thirst. 

3. Take Caffiene pill or drink something low calorie and caffinated.  Not only is caffiene great for energy but it is also a natural diuretic so no need for water pills.

4. Exercise often.  If you can’t exercise often try clenching your butt cheeks.  The use of the gluts cause tons of calorie burn and it is easy to do often.

5. Use supplements like Ephedrine or Clenbuterol.  Both raise your body temperature helping you burn calories by doing nothing.

6. Count all calories, even negative calories because they add up.

7. Sleep as much as you can.  It is known that people who get at least 8 hours of sleep a night are 85% less hungry than the counterparts who get less sleep.

8. Eat slow

9. Cut down on sodium.  Try to never add salt to you foods.  Sodium will make you retain water.

10. Always fidget.  Movement!  Any calorie burning is better than none.

And for more just google Pro ana tips/tricks!!