Friday Morning

24 10 2008

No change here…still the same as yesterday.  This is when I begin to get frustrated.  I am getting the breathing machine out this afternoon and see if that doesn’t help.  I know that I am not eating that much, I mean you are eating way less than me, but I am eating maybe one solid meal a day.  Yesterday I ate 2 and the last one was late and I went to bed right after.  I know I should eat 3 hours b4 I lay down, but it is hard cuz DH eats so late.

I am going to the school for the little pumpkin patch thing today.  That will be exercise for sure, chasing 4 and 5 year olds all over a play area!!  *fun fun*  I took 5 sudefedrines and 2 hoodia this am 8 oz of the strawberries/banana V8(which is gross, btw, I prefer the regular for 80 calories for 8 oz to this for 50 calories)  I am taking 1/2 an onion bagel with me to the cafe in case, and a can of regular V8.  I hope I don’t eat at all, but smelling all the food sends me over the edge :P…I hope you were down this am, I will try to be on messenger this afternoon.  I think I may pick up some laxys just to clean me out…I think you are already clean, but you had a point.  My body is still full of crap that hasn’t come out yet.  I need to do a liquid fast and detox for sure.

Just gonna go one day at a time…I can’t get it off over night*sadly*





Still Fasting in IL

23 10 2008

So last night after getting off of here and going to bed my stomach hurt so bad that I decided to eat something. I ate a small bowl of cereal and then felt so bad about it that I decided to purge.  The only good part of that is it was easy to purge.  I was so happy all day that I had lived through the hunger and then I blew it and ate and at bed time at that. This morning wasn’t much better when I got up and found out that I had only lost a pound. I’m hoping that this is all worth it come Sat morning.  The benefiber by the way is not working for me if anything it is making me feel bloated so that is done for. Back to the laxy’s for a while. Oh and I do take caffeine pills so I don’t think that the headaches are from that. The ephedra I get at the gas station. They quit it here for a while but now they are back. I actually just picked some up this morning while getting juice. Well that’s all I have for now but I will post again tomorrow.