Here I go…AGAIN.

16 11 2008

I have been MIA for a week or so because I have been bad, real bad.  Eating and drinking whatever I want whenever I want it.  I am too afraid to stand on the scales.  I know I have gotten heavier, I can tell by the way my clothes are fitting.

I think I will jump on the wagon with S and do WW.  I know how to do it, I am just not a huge fan.  I do better counting calories because I know my limits and with points I get carried away and have them all eaten by dinner time.  I know that doesn’t make since but it is true.  So I will spend this week tracking points.  I will stand on the damn scales tomorrow morning and give you my ‘true’ weight.

I have a really hard time doing this when I feel so confident.  I look in the mirror and don’t get mad or sad, I am content.  I like my curves and I like food.  But at the same time I don’t want my 3 little girls to grow up thinking my weight and the way I eat is normal.  I want them to see me eating healthy and exercising, regardless of my size.  That is what is important, teaching them how to eat properly and stay fit.  And if I did just that I would, in fact, lose weight.

So as I embark on this AGAIN I will do it with a different attitude.  I am doing this for my health, not for my self confidence or to be sexy.  I am already sexy, no matter what anyone says.  I want to be healthy, happy and live life to the fullest.  When I run in the yard with the girls I don’t want to be out of breath after 2 minutes of playing.  I want to be more active and feel great!!  And I will…

On a different note, I want to let all the great commenter’s to S know how much it means to not only her but to me.  It is really hard to put your life out into ‘blog’ world, but when you do and you get positive feedback it helps.  It helps you maintain your mind set, and reach your goals!  Knowing that others concur and agree allows you to explore your thoughts and feelings even further which helps you reach in and grab that last piece of what you need for success…So thank you all.

C

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Up 2 Pounds, WTF?!

27 10 2008

I went Saturday and got me some rum.  It is 64 calories a jigger and I am doing shots so that is 1/2 the calories of a beer and more alcohol.  I drank beer and rum sat. night, yes I am a drunk.  I was down .5 yesterday but up 2 today!!  I think I must have eaten extra salt yesterday because I didn’t have nearly as many calories yesterday as I did Saturday.  

Water and lots of it today.  I am getting quite addicted to the albuterol.  Not sure if it is helping but I like the shaky high feeling from it.  It does grumpify me tho.

I have already had 500 calories and it is 10 am.  Not good.  But I had 1/2 of Full Throttle energy drink that was 100 calories alone, and I ate toast at 6 so I was hungry again at 9:30 so I had a FF weenier and baked lays.  

This afternoon well be busy.  And tonight is the fall festival that I am taking the girls to for their trick or treat.  So as soon as I get home I have to dress the big girls and go to get candy.  I think Troy will just keep the baby here, it might be easier that way.  Being busy makes me eat more, most would just be too busy but I am hungry all the time when I am busy.  I guess because I am using more energy.  I hope you are having a good morning!!!

 

XOXO





Week 1 Stats*how much I have lost…

26 10 2008

I am not gonna post my weight…but I will post that I have lost 6 pounds since last Sunday when I started this adventure.  That isn’t that bad, I could have done better.  I feel like I need to cut back the alcohol and eat earlier.  I also think some form of exercise is in order this week, walking, sit-up, something.  I have been really active this week, but nothing extra.  

I am not eating very much at all, but I am drinking all of my calories, which IMO is worse.  I just can’t help it.  I feel so hungry at 4 pm and when I drink a beer all that hunger disappears…Then I want more beers, LOL!

I did another Albuterol treatment this am.  I don’t like how it makes me feel, I get really grumpy.  I think it helps tho, like the Clen would.  I just need to buy some of that.





Update…ugg!

22 10 2008

Well I didn’t do well yesterday at all…Being sick and rushing around all afternoon made it hard to focus.  I am not sure what the final calorie count was because I stopped counting.

But I have made up for that today, I have only had liquids.  The only thing with calories was low sodium V8!!  I also picked up some banana/strawberry Fusion(Light) 50 cal for 8 oz.  I finally got my fridge stocked up with some good snack veggies.

I didn’t get in enough water yesterday, but I am picking up the pace today.  I also took my last ephedra this am, so we will see what that does to me.  Exercise is now becoming a concern of mine.  I have some great walking videos by Leslie Sansone that I am seriously thinking about restarting.  I know as restricted as my calories are that it would do a world of good and I would see more results on the scales.

I am thinking about having some V8 soup and eating some celery with it for lunch…or when I get hungry cuz it is noon and I am still not really hungry yet!!  We will see.

 

Mood: OKay, feeling sick from my sinus stuff