Binge and Purge

6 11 2008

So things haven’t been going as planned here in IL. I have been binging like crazy and with that comes the purge. I don’t even have to binge now to want to purge. I don’t like the feeling but every time I eat I just feel the need to throw it all back up. My body is resiting the food which is a good thing but at the same time I don’t want this to be the way. I have done this before and it has had some bad efects on my health and I don’t want for anything else to come bad health wise. I am concerned about gaining weight after the surgery so if anyone has some tips on that it would be much appreciated.

On a positive note things at the new shop are going great. I have been busy as I can be which is a good that keeps me from eating…(which I definately need that). I am having trouble with not eating all day, by the time that I get home I am starving so then I do eat something and its not all the things I should eat. However I am trying to stay within the 800 cal mark. Most days go pretty well but I do tend to drink over my limit.  All the drinking is starting to catch up with me and I am trying to slow that back down to nothing(but I am getting my water in this way).

Thanks so much to Hana for the comments and the thinspiration. You are so strong and I admire you for that. I could only wish that I was that thin but the baby belly seems to never go away. I am thinking of trying to do your diet and hopefully it will work as well for me.  I someimes think of trying the trippin again but I don’t want to do it around K. Although it did keep me from wanting to eat and I stayed busy doing nothing. If only I could go back to the good Ol days…haha

Much love to all that reads

starve on, stay strong

xoxo  S


Week 1 Stats*how much I have lost…

26 10 2008

I am not gonna post my weight…but I will post that I have lost 6 pounds since last Sunday when I started this adventure.  That isn’t that bad, I could have done better.  I feel like I need to cut back the alcohol and eat earlier.  I also think some form of exercise is in order this week, walking, sit-up, something.  I have been really active this week, but nothing extra.  

I am not eating very much at all, but I am drinking all of my calories, which IMO is worse.  I just can’t help it.  I feel so hungry at 4 pm and when I drink a beer all that hunger disappears…Then I want more beers, LOL!

I did another Albuterol treatment this am.  I don’t like how it makes me feel, I get really grumpy.  I think it helps tho, like the Clen would.  I just need to buy some of that.